I sat, not for a second, not for an hour, not for a day, but for seven days.
Waiting, watching, hoping, for that little ray of sunshine.
The iron tablets were starting to make me feel better, but, it came, it went. Where did that euphoric feeling go that I so longed to keep?
Iron deficiency hurts, it hurts so bad.
The agonising pain that shoots through your body, you spend most of the night awake aching, longing to sleep, your so very tired, but nothing seems to help.
You climb out of bed in the morning, your shoulders ache, your arms ache, even your knees hurt.
You have no appetite. You are still losing weight without the intention.
You have tears in your eyes as you reach for the iron tablets but you realize they are just not enough, but you take one anyway, hoping, waiting anxiously.
Sitting at the kitchen table, with your love, having some quiet time together before the morning rush of 3 teenagers begin, you can’t hold back the tears anymore.
Your love wipes the tears away from your face as cry with a knowing look on his face at the pain you feel. He wanted to take this pain away from me, he so desperately wants me to feel ok, even for a day.
Finally when the tears dry, you notice the sun has come out for the first time in seven whole days.
Sitting on the back step is ever so warm, time to soak the sun up and at least, ease the pain just for a second, a minute, maybe an hour or just maybe, a whole day.