Missing..

For some time, I have been “missing”.

Missing from the mere existence that is me. Missing from everything that is going on around me.

Instead, I have been emersed in what pain comes next on what day.

Yes I have Fibromyalgia.

I got lost in the web of Dr’s recomendations of horrific drugs that were meant to help me. Only, they made my life worse, much worse.

In the past few months, I have not wanted to continue to wake up, let alone mere exist each day. I often thought about ending my life, as selfish as that was. That is the scary reality of what some prescribed drugs can do to you.

I finally pulled myself out of the rut, got off the Dr’s drugs that were meant to help with my mental and physical pain and decided to take natural alternatives.

No, I am not pain free, never will be. But, I now have a will to live, more energy and am grateful for what I have in my life everyday, even if it can be stressful.

So on this day, May 12, Fibromyalgia Awareness Day, I would like you to meet “Jack”, the best thing that has come into my life lately. He has helped me get through each day. Pet therapy, is amazing 🙂

I spend each day training this boy to be the best he can be. He also trains me, to get out of bed, to enjoy life, to be me  in some form, once again.